It’s December and everyone is gearing up for Christmas, but now I’m a little introspective. We are always introspective towards the end of the month, but I couldn’t help it. I had so much happened this year. I published two books, homeschooled two children, broke up and then made up with my partner, and had more than a few breakdowns.
But I’m so thankful that I made it another year and that in of itself is a success. There were days I wondered if I was going to make it, if my children would make out of this pandemic healthy, and now after they finally vaccinated I can take a deep breath.
My kids are going back to school for the first time in 18 months and I’m finally able to chase my dreams to the fullest. Within all the heartache and confusion, I published two books, a month a part and I hate to toot my horn but “Fall Into Me” has been so successful, more successful than I ever hoped.
And it was thanks to all of you who took a chance on a nobody. Thank you so much! The love for ‘Fall Into You’ has showed me that this pipe dream of being an author is not attainable, but something I can be successful at.
This didn’t mean that I didn’t have any failures. The thing is, I try to always keep it real with ya’ll. These last two years have been hard. This year has been hard. They were days where I couldn’t get out of bed. The depression was much, especially last summer, that everything seemed worthless and bleak. I overcame it and I learned that my mental health and my boundaries are worth more than any paycheck.
I learned to put myself first, and that is a monumental decision on my part. A game changer.
I also learned that it’s okay not to be perfect, not to be your best right out of the gate, to stumble and fall and make a fool of yourself. It’s natural, and it’s nothing to be ashamed of. I want to take a moment to thank all of you because on my lowest days ya’ll encouraged me and let me fall flat on my face without judgement.
And well, as next year? I’m going not going to be as hard on myself. I’m not going to judge myself too harshly when I inevitably drop yet another project or miss a writing session. As long as I get up eventually, then I know I’m doing okay.
Eight things I have learned this year:
- Your mental health comes first.
- It’s okay to drop projects.
- Dropped projects are not a waste of time.
- It’s okay to make mistakes.
- Never do back to back book launches.
- Never stop learning
- Never compare yourself to other authors.
- Never give up.