March and April have been horrible for both my mental and physical health. I have been feeling run down, and overworked and I had yet another breakdown. I just put so much pressure on myself this year to publish 4 books and I just can’t do it.
I could do it but it would take a huge mental toll on me and so I decided to push back all of my publishing dates until next year. The moment I did this, it was like a weight was lifted off my shoulder because it allows me to write the way I want without sacrificing my mental health.
Then April came and I thought oh this was going to be so much better. My mother and I got a really bad cold. My mom lost her voice and I was laid up in bed for three or four days. During all of this, I managed to finish writing ‘Bone Bride’ which is my next dark monster romance for my brand new pen name ‘Jasper Hyde’. I got most of it done but I wasn’t able to stretch out to 20k in 3 weeks as I thought. I’m going to have to write longer for shorter sprints.
And then Wednesday, I had my very first vision test and as a trans neurodivergent person it was harrowing, to say the least and I am still recovering from it. Spring 2022 has been hell in a handbasket but I’m praying that Summer will be better.